For the first time since news of her separation with Chicago Cubs infielder Ben Zobrist became public, Julianna Zobrist spoke out on social media this week, thanking her fans for their support.

In an Instagram post, Julianna Zobrist said that she is “still here,” and that she is “somewhat in the mire” after news of her separation became public.

“Hi. I am still here. Somewhat in the mire, but I am still here,” she said. “Over these last two weeks I have watched so many of you quietly enter the marshland with me. I can see you, sitting beside me, waist deep in the water and bog. I can feel you, in a silence like art, honoring the most intimate spaces of our pain and heartbreak without shame. I can hear you saying, ‘Let me carry some of that for you.’

“Thank you for stepping forward and not back,” she continued. “Thank you for not shutting your eyes. Thank you for holding my heart within yours, even while you do not yet understand exactly what you are holding. Someday I will share my story with you…but not today. Today we breathe in deeply the fragrance of the rushes and reeds, and then, I might need your delicate reminder to breathe out again. Maybe tomorrow we will look up and notice the marsh wren and smile at her song. Maybe the day after that we will laugh at the skittish harvest mouse. But not today.”

On May 15, Julianna Zobrist filed for divorce in Cook County, but did not give a reason for the separation in court documents. On that same day, Ben Zobrist filed for a separation in Tennessee, citing “inappropriate marital conduct” in the documents.

Ben Zobrist has been on the Cub’s restricted list for most of the month of May as news of the separation broke, and there is no timetable for his return to the diamond.